Tuesday - Jan 7th

Work is the usual. A meeting was delayed so the ass clown that is always late could be there. He was supposed to come in at 9 and didn't make it into work until 1045...I find it highly frustrating that they held off a meeting for him (which interferes with when I eat lunch at 11), and I'm a stickler for punctuality (with that was the same for punctuation / grammar / and spelling) haha. Anyway...

Got an email from J.V. this morning around 4am. Very sweet email where she highlighted some of the main features that she liked about me, and is surprised that I feel the way I do about myself. It was a pleasant way to start the day and I made it a priority to share some thoughts back with her when I made it into work today.

I spoke with a girl that I used to talk to on the regular with but is currently working on night shift. Her initials are C.D. for future reference, mixed, my age, natural hair, can be a little ratchet from time to time but when she's had enough sleep can be a sweet thoughtful person. She's in one of those love / hate on/off relationships for the past 5 years and can't seem to break the cycle. I don't try to get involved and just lend myself as a sounding board. We talk about sexual things, my relationship, her relationship, etc. I asked her how my "christmas present" is doing? She convinced her man to buy the vibrator that I recommended for her (Hitachi Wand), and has been in love with it since. She tells me all the time how it just soothes her stress away and thanks me a few times a month for my "present" although all I did was recommend it. She was complaining that through the holidays she didn't get any Dick, and that she was itching for it and he wouldn't dish it out. I was listening...but all I kept thinking about was her lips. She has these nice thick full lips, and I just wonder...what would that feel like wrapped around my cock. I look at her thighs a lot, and she has a ridiculous ass on her as well. I typically don't go for mixed / black girls, but she is very attractive. I have avoided offering my services as she can be standoff ish and doesn't even wanna hang out in group setting and always says "you got a girl, you need to be happy."...but lets be honest, if all you want is some dick...I can cover that for you...discretely...but I digress.

Walking out to lunch with my boy we walked behind the warehouse chick that I'm friends with (younger) but have put in the friend bucket. She was wearing her tight fitted black dress pants, heels, a black jacket and her gorgeous straight brown hair was down blowing in the wind. Things that crossed my mind...walking up and grabbing that ass and making a sly comment. Would love to walk up behind her and slide my hands around her waist, pressing her against me and my bulge. Imagined what it might be like to wake up to someone that pretty every morning...would I be insecure about it, and if I was with someone like that and I have all these thoughts all the time, who else would be looking thinking about fucking, licking, or stealing them away.

My boy and I categorized if we had to choose which of the waitresses at the Mexican restaurant we would take home if we didn't have a choice. None really had all the features we wanted so it was a battle of what would we be willing to sacrifice.

The fwb wife has been texting me all day with erotic texts, how much she misses my cum and sucking my dick. That she is practicing with her toys so that her deepthroat skills will be more improved the next time it is that we meet. Expressing how she wants me to fuck her face like I would her pussy. She detailed the last few times how she has had sex with me that her husband has made her watch the blowjob videos while he's fucking her from behind. That he enjoys watching her work, and states that she gets more aroused by watching the videos as well.

I would say that so far I've thought about sex, wrote/read something sexual probably every 10-15 minutes today between 4am and 1pm of the writing of this post. I did not count the number of erections or semis at this time. I didn't get lucky last night with my girl, and I didn't finish myself in the shower...almost masochistic lol.