Dreams

What do they mean? Do they mean anything at all?

To be honest for the longest time I was fairly sure that I had lost the ability to dream. Sometimes you know you had a dream, but then when you wake up you can't remember what it was that you were dreaming. But for the better part of almost 2 years I probably hadn't been dreaming at all. Not sure what that means.

About a week ago...I started dreaming again. I forgot how real they feel. Ironically the first one that I recall having was an erotic one, yes I know...two steps away from a sex addict, but what was TRULLY different about this one is that I actually had a wet dream. This hasn't happened to me since I was a young teenager. To actually wake up from a dream and be having an orgasm was definitely different, not to mention my girl was in bed as well. We fall asleep typically facing away from one another, so all was well. I didn't recognize the girl, or the location we were in..there were multiple...but apparently it was a good time!! It actually sparked an interest in me again to start writing graphic material again....and found some of my old work that I was doing a few years back. We'll see if it ever gets posted lol.

I've had a few violent dreams. Fighting, shootings, car accidents, etc. None of which I've ever been fatally hurt in but I've been jacked up pretty good in a few of them. The people in my dreams are friends from HS, coworkers, but the locations are always places that I don't recall ever seeing or visiting. Fantasy land if you will.

Nothing has really changed in my life majorly over the last few weeks. Things have been much of the same, aside from me venting my issues to Blue Eyes. But I don't think that talking about my issues would free up enough space to begin dreaming. I've vented to friends and such, left a few of the details out that I don't want to share with them, but still wasn't dreaming.