Felt Like Sharing...

Today should be a great day. The weather has changed some. It is no longer raining...there is a clear blue sky out, slight breeze...and crisp cool air signifying winter is kicking in. On the drive in today I was able to catch the full moon. It was so bright that you would have probably been ok driving without any headlights on. As the moon faded away, I got to catch the sunrise shortly before pulling into work. Yes...I'm up that early, but that's part of the job and sadly I have gotten used to it. It has it's perks, seeing mother nature in different ways....it always you to reflect and enjoy each day. It's not every morning you get to catch a magnificent sunrise as you cross over a bridge....

With all these good things...why am I still down? I know I suffered a loss today. It is sad to think of, but I try to move on quickly, not letting my emotions set in knowing that it was something that had to be done. It was the right decision to make...but even the right decisions in life are sometimes hard to make and over come.

With the new year approaching quickly I have yet to decide what I want to strive for this year. I feel that I have a lot of goals that I want to accomplish and at times, feel overwhelmed thinking of all the "changes" I want to make in my life. It's hard to focus on one particular thing and strive to obtain in when you are trying to change so many things all together. I understand that you have to priorities...I think I have got a list of goals in mind that I want to accomplish. These changes range from personal endeavors, to working on my physical appearance and health, to education, to career advancement, etc. Maybe writing the list down...giving me something to look at on a weekly basis to remind me what to focus on will help. I just don't know...

Confidence is one of those things that just doesn't happen. I feel comfortable with who I am for the most part. I think I have a good head on my shoulders, I'm striving to better myself, and making the appropriate changes that I need to in order to become a better person, yet...with me being able to say all of the above...I still feel all this self doubt within me. What needs to happen to shed this mindset and move forward feeling confident and accomplished? Is it possible that some individuals are destined to never feel satisfied with what they have? Is there such as thing as "it's never good enough?" I guess the only remaining question would be...am I one of those individuals???