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Rain.....

It is the one form of weather that seems to effect my mood the most. Rained last night. I could hear the rain tapping against my window as I was trying to fall asleep at 1 am. Rain when my alarm went off at 4:50 am. Steaming hot shower..one notch below scolding...water running down the back of my neck and over my shoulders...stinging sensation....like rain on a cold windy day. Rain as I go make my way down the dark and gloomy interstate....and even now....typing this and looking out the window....more rain.

I wonder why rain has such a strong power over me. Is it a change in pressure, some sort of chemical reaction my body or mind has to it....is it the lack of sunlight....is it the craving to crawl back under the sheets and go back to sleep. I don't know...and the truth is, will probably never know. Yes...many others feel similar when bad weather is in their area, but for some reason...I just feel that I'm different when it comes to it. My mood, attitude, thought process all changes...slows down, gets deeper and more reflective. I think about the "choices" I have made. Someone close to me once said "Life is simply about choices." It is easy to think back on your choices after seeing how events have turned out, but...making these choices in real-time is far more difficult.

Read an article about personal finance earlier today and it stated that you are more likely to be successful financially if you include Him in the thought process. I'm not very religious...and honestly, can't remember the last time that I have stepped foot inside of a church. I have yet to read the bible, but do plan to at some point in the future. Regardless...I do believe that there is "something" out there....that has to explain some of the unexplained. I just find it difficult within myself to put my success [or anyone else's] on something that isn't tangible or physical. There are proper steps to becoming financially successful in my opinion and they do not have anything to do with religion. Education, hard work, motivation...all qualities and characteristics that drive an individual to do things and accomplish them. Sure...faith and religion and be one's motivation...but looking at it from a black and white perspective...your the individual putting forth the effort to accomplish it. I just don't see how everything good that happens to someone can be labeled as a "blessing" when it comes to things that can be proven to be result of prior achievements and dedication.

Fog seems to be rolling in as well while I'm typing this. Hovering just below the tree line...peaceful yet at the same time eerie...

I talked to an individual a few days ago that I haven't seen in about two and half years. It was a pleasant surprise to know they were in town. Catching up was nice...listening to what they had accomplished...which schools they have attended...what jobs they have held...what they are trying to obtain in their future. It was refreshing to hear they shared similar outlooks in life with me...what their goals were, what order they want to achieve them in, the effects of friends and family in their life and decision process....the list goes on. Long story short...it was nice way to feel reassurance that things are moving in the right direction.

Taking a break...may continue later.