The Beginnings

2011…what does it signify?

To some…just another year, routine, day in day out…being a part of the larger picture or simply fore filling their role as a moving peg in the big machine…

I’m no different than most…in that I continue to follow my routines, 2011 is just another year…except that I’m going to try to make this one unique. We’re all current results of past actions and experiences…some by choice, some not by our choice. 2011 I decided that I want to make changes, and to me…that is significant.

I’m making decisions based on what makes me happy…not based on what other’s think…
I’m living life for me…not for others or seeking others’ approvals…
I’m taking better care of myself…mentally, emotionally, and physically….
I’m focusing on my career…to obtain the lifestyle I want

Don’t mistake what I’m trying to convey. I’m not becoming selfish..and anyone that knows me personally knows that I’m the furthest thing from being selfish. The aforementioned list is nothing more than my attempt to realign my life displayed in verbal form. Dig deep inside…look at yourself closely, and I think you can appreciate the items listed…and may not be to far from how you lead your life as well. This may be an outlandish judgment call, but I’m basing it solely off of the group of friends that I surround myself with. I don’t think I speak far from the truth.

I fear change. My goal is to conquer that fear. For those that know me…they may find it shocking that I would admit that. The change I’m referring to is deeper than just the clothes I wear, body modifications (tats/piercings/hairstyle), foods I eat, and going back to the gym. It’s the mental transition of moving from being depressed to being happy, appreciating what I have and have accomplished and not stressing about what I don’t have and the endless comparison against what “others” have. I refuse to become complacent…it’s genetically impossible. It goes against how I was raised and groomed…but…this same upbringing has had a toll on my “happiness.” Finding the balance is key.

Wish me luck…